I remember as me and my mom were talking about two nights ago I think that when I was little two cars broke down while I was in it and one was a station wagon in New Orleans because it’s where I’m originally from. I can’t remember a thing about my city maybe from years of depression as a child til now with no one knowing til my early 20s or maybe I might actually have something wrong with my head. I may see a neurologist or something like that. But in the mean time those are about the very few memories I have most of them not this one obviously but most in a school setting. I don’t remember my own my growing up. I felt like I didn’t even love my own mom until recently because I forgot about her it was the strangest thing. Here I’ll give you another memory me in maybe the 1st grade calling this kid Vincent who actually liked me a bastard while receiving those books you pay for at the book fair you remember those lol Poor kid cause I also told the teacher he was acting up in the classroom but it was actually me and of course I being the teachers pet would have her believe me lol poor kid again lol I did not like him like that lol I had my 1st grade heart set of for my first crush Jonathan lol I bet you don’t find this strange me giving you my earliest of memories but I do. Mind you I barely had friends as a child always roaming the school all alone from about the 2nd grade. I use to go home by myself and be alone at an early age probably 2nd or 3rd grade. Alway alone til today as well with a slight few friends here and there. But a loner nonetheless. Middle school my mind was numb idk how to explain it I was so freaking numb I didn’t know how to talk to ppl only friends I had were my neighbors but then I barely talked. But I was still loved by them. So I to this day don’t know why I can’t remember trips I took, my mom the ppl I grew up with and just my life. I’m still that way some ppl say it’s because I didn’t have friends from an early stage in life until now stable friendships besides a few. I really don’t know I don’t remember this it seems unless I do something not all the time it has to be something I like or things with people but I won’t really remover much about the conversations. My mind is a total fuck up but I’m still trying to make it and live life to my fullest. Maybe it’s God saying that since you had such a terrible life thus far I will give you something you will never dream of.